碇シンジ//Ikari Shinji

[dramadramaduck] 018 [LOCKED TO SOUL]

2009-01-15T06:37:56Z

Hey..Soul? Can I ask you something?

[OOC] RP LOVE MEME

2009-01-11T18:51:01Z

[dramadramaduck]017

2008-12-26T09:58:49Z

This is a little late but..um, I hope everyone had a nice Christmas. And..thank you for the ones who bought me gifts. Really...thank you. It means a lot to me. Some I expected the presents but..there are some that I didn't. And the ones that...I didn't, I'm sorry that I wasn't..able..to give you something in return.

But,...maybe if it's okay that..I can give you a later present? I know it won't be the same but..it's the least I could do.

[Locked]

...Sorry for the way I acted.

[/Locked]

[dramadramaduck]016

2008-12-09T08:47:36Z

I can't get this song out of my head...

[ooc: DAMN YOU SJ/SOUL-MUN.]

[dramadramaduck]015

2008-12-03T05:52:12Z

It's been a while since I've updated this..journal. I'm sorry for it. I've just..been busy with school and everything. Nothing..hasn't really changed with me except that Toji-kun and...Pen Pen are living with me and that I,uh...recently..turned back to..a kid again.

I managed to get around when I was little..thanks to Minato-kun and some of my other friends. Speaking of friends,..Asuka's birthday is soon. I've..never been invited to a birthday party before so--this is something new for me. I'm a bit..scared to be honest. I bet that's..kinda dumb of me to..be afraid of some..birthday party.

[Filtered from Asuka]

Her birthday is coming up and I still can't..think of anything to give her. I..don't even have the money to get her anything. I feel...really bad about it. I need to come up with something soon.

[/Filtered]

[Easily Hackable to all]

...It's December already,..meaning Christmas--another holiday that I'm..not too familiar with. I should..probably start getting presents for people, even if I don't get any. I..kinda don't expect anyone to. I'm fine with not getting anything. I just..rather see other people happy.

[/Hackable]

[dramadramaduck]014

2008-11-05T18:16:10Z

I'm finally done moving my things...to my new place. It's pretty decent, I like it. It's just...nice to have my own space..I don't know. I guess the privacy. I started school too. But I didn't make any new friends or anything. I was pretty much..ignored. But that's okay. That's..what I want. This place is a little..surreal though. I feel like I'm going to wake up one day and..be back to my..original home.

I'm...not really sure what's going to happen next--with..this robot issue. My friends want me to be extra careful when I go out just..in case he comes by. He doesn't..know where Asuka and I live so..that's a good thing. But I'm worried for Amu-chan and the others on the list that he knows where they are. I..just hope that something good will come from this.

[Private||Hackable if you believe hard enough]

Everyone is..so concerned about me getting hurt or killed. They shouldn't. After..killing Kaworu-kun,...not being there in time when Asuka got killed, I'm not sure what I could have done for..Ayanami--but I could have probably done something--just..letting my world down by not prevent to stop the Impact...I deserve this. It's probably the reason why it's after me in the first place. I rather..just have my friends protect Asuka. I..don't want her hurt again. It's the..last thing I want.

I don't know anymore.

[/Private]

[dramadramaduck]013

2008-10-24T21:08:05Z

I've..been doing a lot of thinking as of late. For one thing, I feel..a little bad that I'm staying over at Minato-kun and the rest of his friends' place. ~~And I feel even..worse that I keep bringing more people from my world to come stay with us.~~ So,...I decided on something. I'm..thinking about attending school again, the school that Minato-kun and the others are going to. And that way,..I'll be able to get my own dorm. I have thought about just getting an apartment but--according to Minato-kun, they're pretty expensive. It would, just be easier to go to school and have my own dorm.

Besides, I want to forget everything about what happened. Piloting Eva, Angels, NERV, my father, Third Impact. Just..everything. I want to start a new life here and..I don't care if my world somehow gets rebuild. I don't want to go back. EVER. I want to...treat it like it was just a bad dream.

[Private to Asuka, Kaworu, and Ayanami]

Are you..three going to stay there with Minato-kun or...going to go to school and get your own dorms too? A-Also,..I'm not really sure what..to do with Touji-kun. According to this here , his world..isn't destroyed. So..that means he's from the past..like Asuka right? So..I'm not sure if we should..bring him here or just..leave him in that time. Because..what if--he goes through that experince where father made me stop him? Or..Third Impact?

I-I'm not sure what I should do. What do you guys think?

[/Private]

[ooc: Strikes are readable but not to Touji]

[dramadramaduck]012

2008-10-23T00:41:52Z

I'm sorry for..acting a little weird the last couple of days. I guess..um..just..ignore how I was. It looks like a lot of people are doing this...quiz? I guess..I'll do it too. I have nothing else...to do with my time.

- I _____ Shinji.
- Shinji is _____.
- Shinji likes to ______.
- I want to _____ Shinji.
- Shinji can ______.
- Someday Shinji will ______.
- Shinji reminds me of ______.
- Without Shinji, it will be _____.
- Right now, I bet Shinji is thinking about _____.
- Shinji makes me want to _______.
- If I could spend the day with Shinji, I'd _____.
- Shinji is made of _______.
- If I could be Shinji for a day, I'd ______.
- Shinji's alter-ego is __________.
- I want to give Shinji ______.

[ooc: If you have to lock, feel free~]

[dramadramaduck]011 (Musical Virus)||Not hackable to Kaworu

2008-10-20T05:10:44Z

[ooc: LOL THIS IS ME ATTEMPTING TO SOUND LIKE SHINJI SINGING Orz. I decided to go ahead and post this up just in case...I won't have time later.]

[dramadramaduck]010

2008-10-08T11:41:54Z

[Private//Hackable]

...

This..has been the worst few weeks of my life. I'm ready for all of it to end now..

~~Everything is all my fault anyways. I'm so pathetic....~~

[/Private]

[OOC] Shinji's Harem List

2008-10-05T01:42:47Z

Another OOC note lol sorry. This is a post to keep up with Shinji's Harem. It's slowly growing folks. Yes, yes it is. The list below are the people~ /o/.

1. Kaworu
2. Asuka
3. Rei
4. Nill
5. Minato
6. Suzaku
7. Ran
8. Othello
9. Colette

[OOC] What's on Shinji's mind about you?

2008-10-05T00:41:26Z

Want to see what Shinji thinks of your character? Comment here and I'll respond to you in return.

[OOC] AWA Con Pictures

2008-10-01T07:08:20Z

Half of you people, I don't have on my main friends list and some of these pictures I took just for you guys. Some of these people..uh..I have no idea where they're from but I took a picture of them anyways because they were neat looking.

Note: I tried my best to get them as small as possible. So..sorry if I lag your computer.

THERE YA GO! All the pictures I took. Hope you enjoyed them /o/.

[ooc] smut meme

2008-09-28T15:32:58Z

Taken from...everyone else in the community.

Top or Bottom?:~~TOP DAMNIT! HE CAN TOP~~ Shinji would most likely be bottom. He would probably be top for a little while,however eventually he would...be bottom(this includes both sexes).

Spit or Swallow?: Spit at first seeing that he would be shock but eventually, he would get use to it and swallow with no problem.

Abstinence?: ....Well. He doesn't HAVE TO HAVE IT LIKE BAD or anything like that. ~~His hand does the job just fine.~~

Any kinks?: Breath play-most definitely. He would like pain but only a very skim light version(i.e. dragging nails on his back, light biting, digging nails in skin-but not to the point of drawing blood-)

Favorite position?: Shinji isn't TOO picky when it comes to positions. ~~To be honest, as long as he's getting it, he doesn't care.~~ He would most likely try anything once you make him overcome his embarrassment.

How does he like it?: It depends on his frustration really. Rough and fast if he gets into those "angsty/angry moods" but will take it nice and slow(along with A LOT of foreplay and teasing then result in a fast pace towards the end)otherwise. However, Shinji would be the type of person that after sex- YOU HAVE TO GIVE HIM COMFORT/HOLD HIM. Otherwise, he would most likely have a small breakdown. It's something that he can't help to do. It's more like a mental thing. It's to let him know that he is actually loved and appreciated and not just "an easy fuck" as people would put it.

[RL-dramadramaduck] The Begining Of The End

2008-09-25T21:42:39Z

And just like a blink of an eye, it stopped. Chaos ended; the world was still. Only the waves of the ocean echoed through his ears. There was no movement from him. No sound, no expression, no anything. He watched the sky above him-at least what he thought was the sky. There were thoughts; too many to keep track-not sure where to begin to think. He still had questions. Questions that he knew that possibly will never be answered nor will he be able to understand. There was a faint sound from afar; so faint that even he was a little surprised that it caught his attention. Shinji slowly turned his gaze and there was Ayanami floating at sea or maybe it wasn't her. Whether or not it was, Shinji did nothing but stare back at her until she disappeared completely.

Finally gaining enough strength, he sat up-returning his glance back at where Ayanami once stood. Shinji averted his eyes towards Asuka; who laid still beside him; still no movement from her. Still no sound. He chewed on the inside of his lip-debating. Slowly, Shinji crawled on top of her-immediately not making any eye contact to her. Another pause-hesitation. He reached over to her-curling his fingers around her neck. Lightly, he pressed but each second-the grip was tighten. His knuckles turned whiter, his body started to tremble. Dream or reality? This was the way to know-the only way to find out the answer.

[ooc: This is occuring during Shinji, Kaworu, and Asuka (once she jumps to their timeline)'s absence on DDD. Note: This will probably be a very long RP Log. You have been warned.

Status: COMPLETED]

[dramadramaduck]009

2008-09-22T20:38:19Z

[Locked//Hackable except for Kaworu and Asuka]

What am I suppose to do now..? There's no way I could...I just can't! Why are they putting me through this?! I don't even know if I feel---Why me? Why couldn't it be someone else? It's..not fair at all. I just want all of us to be like we use to. Continue to be..like we were. No changes. But...that's not good enough. I feel like I HAVE to choose. But I don't WANT to! Not between them! They're....this...this hurts. I don't know what to do.

I hate this. I hate all of this. Now I can't go to either of them...I...don't know if I could ever..talk to them again-have the courage to talk to them again.

What do I do...Ayanami..? Why aren't you here? I want to talk to you. I'm so confused with everything.

I...just..hate it all.

[Locked]

[dramadramaduck]008

2008-09-21T22:54:33Z

.....

I'm...really bored right now so I decided to..do this meme that I saw on the internet earlier:

Ask me any question, anything at all(ask anonymously if you wish). And I will try my best to answer with honesty.

[OOC]Voice Post

2008-09-19T07:31:34Z

HERMY WHY?! WHY MY LIFE?!?!

[dramadramaduck]007

2008-09-11T02:05:44Z

I've been doing a bit of traveling lately. I went and visited Minato-kun twice; once with Asuka. It..was a nice visit. I enjoyed it a lot. I also went to Yuuri-san's world and he helped me get over my cold. I really appreciate it. I feel a lot better. Is there anything you want me to do to repay you Yuuri-san, please let me know.

I haven't heard from Suzaku-san still. I hope he's doing okay. I am eating better, not much better-but I am eating. My sleeping habits is still...a bit off. But it's not as bad as it use to be.

Also, I came across this song a few days ago. And I've been listening to it since I found it.

It's the disease of the age
It's the disease that we crave
Alone at the end of the rave
We catch the last bus home

Corporate America wakes
Coffee republic and cakes
We open the latch on the gate
Of the hole that we call our home

Protect me from what I want...
Protect me protect me

Maybe we're victims of fate
Remember when we'd celebrate
We'd drink and get high until late
And now we're all alone

Wedding bells ain't gonna chime
With both of us guilty of crime
And both of us sentenced to time
And now we're all alone

Protect me from what I want...
Protect me protect me
Protect me from what I want...
Protect me protect me

Protect me from what I want...
Protect me protect me
Protect me from what I want...
Protect me protect me

~~...I hate thunderstorms.~~

[OOC: Strike=Hackable. And tags will be a little slow because I'm drowned with other tags and I'm changing Shinji's journal a bit. So don't panic if Shinji's journal keeps changing o/.]

[dramadramaduck]006

2008-09-03T14:56:34Z

Again,...boredom gets me. I should..really be in bed right now. But...tired of it.~~Being sick is not fun.~~ Uh..this is me...playing my cello. I know I'm not any good. Like I said...was bored.

[ooc: Of course in canon, Shinji plays the Cello. So..let's pretend that he recorded himself playing and posted it on his journal shall we? o/. And strike is VERY easily hackable.]

[OOC] COMIC

2008-09-01T08:10:33Z

I DID NOT DO THE ART TO THIS, but I did write the dialogue. I was really bored last night so I decided to make this little comic and put it on my journal. And now I decided to put it on here. So..um..enjoy this?

[dramadramaduck]005

2008-08-31T01:15:19Z

Got a bit bored, so I decided to this personality test meme.

My Personality


Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	1
Openness To Experience	27
Agreeableness	77
Conscientiousness	78

You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in, however you feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions.

Take the Personality Tests now or view the full personality report.

Uggs

Same as always-it's really quiet, but I think I'm starting to get use to it now. Pen Pen and I have been home alone all day today mostly. Misato-san left early this morning to go to work. She didn't say much other than something going on with NERV. She told me that she'll tell me what's up when she gets home. It's past nine o clock and she's still not home. Good thing there was room in the fridge for me to at least put her dinner in. I keep forgetting how much beer she has. Seeing that I'm probably not going to Suzaku's world this weekend, I'll just stop by Kaworu-kun's tomorrow and give him some of the left overs of my dinner. I know I should probably...eat, but-I haven't had the urge to eat as of late. If I'm not on the computer-I'm mostly in my room listening to my SDAT player. Every so often I go to the living room and watch TV but...I haven't been in the mood to watch TV either. Haven't been in the mood to not do anything pretty much.

I've been getting light dizzy spells through out the days and it's been getting harder to get up after sleeping. Good thing I don't have to worry about school now. I don't think I would be able to get up around six o' clock in the morning every day. I've tried to use my time to play another music piece with my cello, but...it's been so hard to concentrate for some reason. Oh well, maybe all of this is just in my head. As it usually is...

[dramadramaduck]To Suzaku-san

2008-08-29T01:49:04Z

Suzaku-san,

This weekend will be okay for me to visit right? Saturday sound good..? And uh,..there's some people that want to come too. I want to run it by you first so...is that okay?

[OOC]

2008-08-28T11:50:03Z

THE RP LOVE MEME

[dramadramaduck]004

2008-08-24T09:11:53Z

Still quiet here. I really shouldn't be complaining. After all, this..quietness doesn't happen often. So, I should really be enjoying this moment as much as I can. Maybe I'm being this way because it might be a little too quiet. Maybe I gotten so use to loud chaotic things that this period of time right now for me is making me feel unease.

In other cases, I think I made a new friend on the community. And,..that makes me really happy. He and I have a lot in common and it's...well, I won't say it's weird. But it's just very rare to find someone as the same..things as me I guess. He wants me to visit his world some day and I hope I can some time. But, I might need to come up with an excuse for Misato-san on why I'm gone. I guess I could say that I'm spending the day with Kaworu-kun. At least, I hope Kaworu-kun wouldn't mind covering for me. Though, I feel a bit bad doing so.

I should try and sleep now.

碇 シンジ//Ikari Shinji